A reason for every hurdle

I am not quite sure where I see my life leading me so I have decided to take every day at a time. And with each day I take a step to my overall goal. I want to make a difference, I want to be remembered and I want to change someone’s life. The first step I see in achieving this goal is to complete my undergrad and get my degree in Biomedical Engineering. I entered Biomedical Engineering because I wanted to help look for a solution to the disease that took one very special man in my life away from me, Cancer. Since my few years in college I have decided that I enjoy talking to people about what I am passionate about and spreading awareness more than research. And for this reason I am not quite sure where the years ahead of me are leading. But once again, before I can look to the future, I have to look at today.

They always say that you are going to be broke when you are in college, but I had no idea what to expect. Being broke when your parents are covering most if not all of your expenses is quite different then being broke yourself. I have never felt the pressure and helplessness that I feel when I add up my bills to 1172 and I only got paid 593. I hate having to ignore the calls from all the people who want their money; I’ve now given up worrying about my credit. And then on top of bills the living expenses and forget about doing anything for yourself. There is no more helpless feeling than the feeling of being in debt to people who you don’t even know. All I can do is breath and know that this too shall pass. This saying has become my mantra and I have lived to learn that in time it all does pass, and at least for me, when I look back I can see a reason for every hurdle I had to jump and every detour I had to take. So I know that in the end this will only make me stronger, but for now it sucks.

Let your heart become so saturated with love that you are able to ride the waves of change with equipoise and find new meaning in everything that happens

–Gurumayi Chidvilasananda

xoxo 

Nediva♥

The Beginning

After blogging over the past two months in Costa Rica I have decided that I throughly enjoyed talking about nothing, so I have decided to continue and document my race to achieve my goals. I am not quite sure exactly what it will entail but I hope that whatever I write someone can relate to.

xoxo
Nediva ♥